I DISAPPEAR, 2017 Forest mood flower installation

I made this floral art installation after my mom died suddenly in 2016. It is called I Disappear. I made it in 2017. My mother's death was very hard for me and I just could not believe that she was gone. I am not a very religious person (even though I believe in my own way to something bigger) but it really is a big question mark what to think about after life. Of course I used a lot of time wondering if I will ever see my mom again. Time passes and luckily it heals too. Sorrow turns to longing.

Somehow I feel this photo is very current now. These past few weeks have shown us a different reality in Europe. A war in Ukraine. But it is not the only war at the moment. There are people dying in many countries and there are people who lose someone dear for reasons I can't understand. But I know they all feel same way that I did. Unbearable sorrow. Huge black whole in their hearts.

The story of this photo is that one is leaving and the other one is watching how the other disappears into the black. It is not necessarily a scary place where the other one goes because it is in the middle of the most beautiful fairytale forest. The cruel thing is that we all have to go someday. Hopefully in peace, not in war. I hope we can take care of our beloved ones and save lives in these horrible wars so that no one have to die for no reason and no one have to lose their loved ones.

The Paper

Hahnemühle Hemp uses one of the oldest and most diverse natural fibres in the world and is made of 60% hemp fibre. The FineArt inkjet paper’s base impresses with its bright white natural tone, and thanks to the bright white colour of the hemp fibres, no optical brighteners are required. The lightly textured surface gives the paper a pleasant, silky feel. Paper is matt.

• 290 gsm • 60% hemp fibre • 40% cotton • white

convertion CM to INCH

20x25cm = 7.87 x 9.84 inch

32x40cm = 12.60 x 15.75 inch

40x50cm = 15.75 x 19.69 inch

45x50cm =17.72 x 19.69 inch

60x75cm = 23.62 x 29.53 inch

72x90cm = 28.35 x 35.43 inch

90x80cm = 35.43 x 31.50 inch

100x125cm = 39.37 x 49.21 inch